Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Down in a Hole, Losing My Soul

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who wont let himself be

I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Id like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, outta control
Id like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Photos taken by sister Annie King.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


Listening to: Faith No More: Annie Song

We care alot!

Very appropriate song for what is going on in the world.

I am the needle in your vein and I control you

I am going to cosplay as Rin from Fate Stay Night. I haven't seen the series but I was always drawn to this outfit as it is somewhat cute, goth. I am going to watch a few episodes to get her character right. I already have the skirt, socks and shoes and I bought the red top in a boutique in Dublin today. :)

So all I need to do is curl my hair, get the bows and alter the top and work on the make up.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Cries tears

I absolutely love this photo by Man Ray, one of the photographers I am a fan of. The big sad weeping eyes looking up to heaven, the beautiful sad expression and the pearl drops make this photo very appealing. It is hard to believe it is not a real girl, it is actually a mannequin. I only found out about that tonight. so creative.

The face in Man Ray's famous photograph "Glass Tears" (1933) belongs not to a real woman but to a fashion mannequin who cries tears of glistening, round glass beads. Man Ray made this photograph in Paris around the time of his breakup with his lover Lee Miller and the woman's false tears may relate to that event in his life. This photograph is a part of the collection of Randi and Bob Fisher and currently on display at the Pier 24 Photography Gallery in San Francisco, California.


This photo really reflects my feelings right now.

Listening to: NIN - Mr. Self Destrust

Saturday, March 12, 2011

I need your dicipline I need your help

Am I
Am I still tough enough?
Feels like I'm wearing down (down down down down)
Is my viciousness losing ground (ground ground ground ground)
Am I taking too much?
Did I cross the line? (line line)
I need my role in this
Very clearly defined

I need your discipline
I need your help
I need your discipline
You know once I start I cannot help myself

Now it's starting up
Feels like I'm losing touch
Nothing matters to me
Nothing matters as much
I see you left a mark
Up and down the skin (skin skin)
I don't know where I end
Or where you begin

I need your discipline
I need your help
I need your discipline
You know once I start I cannot help myself

And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself

Friday, March 11, 2011

I'm losing ground you know how this world can beat you down I'm made of clay I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way

I couldn't believe it today when a friend showed me coverage of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan. Natural disaster are horrible and I recall the Haiti earthquake and the Thai tsunami, how horrible there were. At least Japan is a developed and has protection against these disasters but still all in all I prey. I prey for people I know over there that they are ok.. People I talk to every now and then on cosplay sites I hope they are ok..

While coming across other anime, Japanese related forums and people talking about it had me thinking.. I never been to Japan but always wanted to go there but I feel deep down over this accident and feel a deep connection. Japanese culture was always a big influence to me growing up and even now. I was always attracted to Asian culture and became attracted to Japanese culture as I would watch alot of it on TV and then came across anime and manga. When watching anime cartoons on Sci-Fi (the golden days for me) I became more attracted to Japanese culture and it made me happy the whole Japanese school girl look, cute clothes, moe, kimonos, tea ceremonies, art, their fantasies, history..

I like it all and it felt a place for me. My escapism I suppose. My direction and happiness is all Japan, anime, manga related being cosplay. If it wasn't for Japan, I would have never got into anime, if it wasn't for anime I would have never got into cosplay and if it never was for cosplay I wouldn't be this happy and doing what I am doing now. I suppose it can be quite normal for someone to have a belonging to another country like my sister loves France and you would call her Frenchie. I have said to people call me Japany as you can see I am very Japanese influenced in my clothing and such yet maintain my Irishness. :p

So I thought I am the only one who feels this way? I guess not.. and it is good to know.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Passion is a vitue if you want it it will come

I read a few cosplay articles awhile ago, one was from Kotaku and was about a well known cosplayer Alodia. I first came across Alodia when I discovered the site and ever since then there has been numerous articles about her and her successes as a cosplayer. Fair play to her for getting herself out there especially in a niche market and in a niche culture. I think this blog post will explain abit more about my interest as a cosplayer for the ones who read my blog and don't really understand it.

In this article from Kotaku, Alodia explains that cosplay,

"as a form of art," she tells Kotaku. "It's not just dressing-up." For the 22-year-old, cosplay incorporates craft, sewing, make-up, wig and hair styling, photography, acting and more. "And most of all, cosplay crosses geographical barriers,"

When I started of as a cosplayer back in 2006 it was like fancy dress at a con to me, I use to only cosplay at cons. Over time I would spend hours browsing cosplay sites and seeing amazing cosplayers like models posing in artistic photos. Cosplay can be pretty much like modelling but it is in costume and you are playing a person. Also with cosplay depending on your situation and environment you have no choice but to make your costume and become good at make up so over time you become very talented in costume making and in make up art. I defiantly agree with Alodia that cosplay is a full time job and a one man band.

Even because of her cosplays and being in popular media there has been talks of her being offered a role for a Hollywood movie being World Of Warcraft. This was because she cosplayed as one of the characters from it and really resembled the character and maybe because of her popularity. I find that amazing, a cosplayer being asked to be in a movie.

Here is an amusing video of Alodia talking about cosplay on a TV show.

I really believe if you want to get good at something you need to look up to people who became successful so they will motivate you and you know you can get there yourself if you tried, instead of mumbling in disgusting jealousy.

Another amazing article I read about cosplay motivation and how it betters people was about a girl called Michelle Pearl who promised her mother after she died of cancer that she will loose weight and better herself. She bettered herself through cosplay. It was because of her love for the video game character Samus Aran she motivated herself to loose weight and work on the cosplay to the best it can be.

Sometimes even a fictional character, is enough to give you a powerful dose of inner strength.
Michelle Pearl

Listening to: NIN - Discipline

I Heart Pancake Tuesday

Listening to: NIN - The Slip

Monday, March 7, 2011

Insult to Injury Part deux

More photos from Brendan aka Mapman.

Listening to: NIN - We're in this together now

Insult to Injury

A few photos from Brendan's shoot

Listening to: Tool: Pushit

Watch the weather change

Life has gotten really busy and exciting for me. I have been doing shoots every weekend which is great and I am getting very interesting experiences and meeting interesting people. I really feel I am living my dream and getting towards my goal.

Two weeks ago I had a fun photoshoot with Brendan who I met on folio32. We done this photoshoot in Pheonix Park Dublin and I wore an eye patch, leg and arm cast and halo. I was an injured doll hence I wore my black doll lenses. Brendan will be shooting me again this weekend as Rei Ayanami in the casts and eye patch which should be fun.

I had a fun photoshoot with my sisters which was a punk fashion shoot, this was done in our back garden. Then just the weekend gone I took part in a paid shoot for a website How the shoot went is in my deviantart, :) it was an amazing expereince and I would be up for it again.

I have a few more coming up whether it is cosplay or fashion but it all great. I am really happy how things are going and feel this was all met to be. I was glad that I finally got the motivation to leave my comfort zone and follow my dream. :) I am really enjoying my make up course and I am really going to start looking after myself and exercise. Don't stop the music as I am having fun.

Listening to: Tool - Lateralis