Tuesday, June 28, 2011

I sometimes don't know why I exist.

Three of us. So many the same, so many without purpose..

I may be cold and emotionless but... I feel alittle fuzzy inside.

Photos taken by Stephen.


  1. Hello Cairdiuil,

    I once commented here a very long time ago and have been coming back to your blog ever since, over and over and over again – I hardly dare ask myself why, of course, but that’s another story.

    This seems stark. You sometimes don’t know why you exist? Hmm. It would be lovely to offer up some meaninglessly drab cliché about how we all find our purpose eventually and you just need to hang in there etc – but, if you’re anything like me, such a vacuous imprecation may have you reaching for your gun.

    Two tiny things, okay?

    1) I have rarely - if ever - felt such out and out pleasure looking at pictures of people as I’ve felt when I look at the pictures you post to this blog. I know, I know – shoot me (before my wife does).

    2) Something about you inspires a complete stranger to respond to a seeming distress, hmm? I may be wrong, of course, but this suggests to me that even if you, personally, occasionally struggle to find a meaning for your own existence, other people may more readily see such a thing in you and may feel distantly happy that you exist at all - and that’s got to count for something.

    I’m just saying.

    Right, I’ll step back into the shadows and start lurking again. (Suits me better, for sure)

    Take it easy.

    (Unless, of course, this is all part of some role-play and I've just made a catastrophic fool of myself? It wouldn't be the first time, I suppose. I get used to being dumb, I've grown into it.)

  2. I love the picture in the mirror, it's awesome. Your Rei cosplay is so good, are you doing her at arcade con aswell?

  3. But Rei, without you, who would exist to destroy the Angels and recreate the work with Shinji?

  4. @ILYTC: I have not forgotten you. Watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmlPqJKgJQU&feature=mh_lolz&list=FLia0UtF-JO-M

    You will understand. I wish you well.

    @ Hotaru: thanks very much, there is lots to learn of Rei's character, I have yet to read the manga, it is very deep.

    No, giving I will be staffing I will be cosplaying as Rin from Fate Stay Night as I can use my own hair and be more casual. Will you be at ArcadeCon? I will be cosplaying as Rei in the bandages for Nomcon.

  5. I'll definitely be at arcade con and hopefully nom con too - hope to see you there :) I'm hoping to pop along to your cosplay panel - I have to say, reading this blog and your new cosplay one has given me an appreciation for this art form that I never really had. So thank you :)

  6. @Hotaru: Thanks alot, I am really glad you find this blog a good read. :) I really appreciate it.

    Well if you see me in cosplay and after the panel don't be afraid to come up and say hi. :)See you there, I will be going to Nomcon too.